These pregnancy updates wouldn't be complete unless I addressed some of the anxiety I've been feeling recently. At one point this week, it kept me up until 3am, but I couldn't get it written here.
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| that's Luc in there |
I worry there will be an issue during labor that will force me to give up on the idea of having a drug-free birth.
I worry something will be unhealthy or abnormal for this boy.
I worry about the pain and healing process after the birth.
I worry about feeling overstressed. (getting stressed about having stress in the future, I know, it's crazy.)
I worry about not being able to breastfeed.
I worry about how my (and our) parenting will evolve once this new babe arrives.
I worry how Luc will react and then interact with his new brother.
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| the first day back home with Luc |
Writting it all down helps me to make more sense of it and simply get it out of my system. Looking at the calender, I realised something else too. Perhaps the source of this anxiety came from fears connected to the miscarriage I had back in March. The baby would have been born mid-November.
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